Thursday, June 6, 2013

I'm 12 now. PART 1,000,000

I really want to just get my kid journal up because I think its hilarious to remember life being so simple but feeling like it was such serious stuff. It gets pretty intense here, so be ready. I bet you just can't believe I got over not getting a ferret and you are probably going crazy to see if I've made progress on my Wheat Thins addiction. We'll see, my friends.

Also, I will update you on my present day life soon. Here is a tiny bit.
This morning I was procrastinating going to work because I wanted to hang out with Lucas. I ate breakfast and still didn't want to go so I made a breakfast smoothie and had a 2nd breakfast. Lucas said, "Another breakfast?"
I said "Yes" and shake dripped onto my baby belly.
He shook his head and said, "You're just a Gluttonous King!"
When he got home from work this afternoon he was teasing me and I said, "I am the King and you will not tease me! You have been demoted to Jester. You are no longer my Queen!"
He said, "I'm not a Queen."
I said, "If I'm the King then you are the Queen. But not anymore, you are the Jester. Now dance."
 He didn't dance. He's bad at all his jobs in the palace.


"Date: June 29, 1999 Today I woke up and did chores. then I went to the pool and saw Jontue J. there. For some reason I wanted to be near him or for him to scratch my back. I don't even think he's cute! (when I say HIM I mean Jontue's older brother James) Then I went to Erica's house and went through her sprinklers. Then I went to Erin L.'s farewell. (Oh yeah I also got my hair cut) <3 Amber H."

"Date: June 30, 1999
Today was quite the day! When I woke up there was no Job list!!! I went downstairs and heard steven talking on the phone. He was planning to go to Discovery Zone. Mom took Me, Steve, Steve's friend Brint, Emily, & Eli to DZ. It was a Blast. When I got home I jumped on teh tramp and then went to Pie Night and worked on some Beehive stuff. Slept in Mom's Bed! <3 Amber"

"Date: July. 1, 1999
Today I woke up at 12:00 (Noon) and right away went to Aunt Ellen's house to babysit. I babysat from 12:00 to 5:30 and when I got home we went to go get fireworks. Then I came home and hung out then went to bed. <3 Amber"

Right Now I'm in the car going to Idaho! Were going for a family reunion on a lake and were camping. I forgot to write on the 4th of July. So I will tell you about it. Oh Oh. here comes Mom I'll write about it later <3 Amber"

"Date: 11/26/99
Holy Cow!! I havn't written in here for a long time. I guess I was gonna tell you about my family renunion but I can't remember. I do remember that we went cliff jumping adn Rachel H went off the highest rock the first time she ever jumped. I was too scared to go at the top so I went at the middle, and I had jumped in my life before that. Now, about resently. Yesterday was thanksgiving and it was at our house. Now I'm excited for Christmas and !!2000!! New Years! But wait I need to back up. In the Summer we went to the pool almost everyday. Of coarse Now it's closed so we don't go there. I started my first year in Middle School this year and at first I hated it because I had no friends and so much homeowrk, which was a big change because last year I had no homework at all. (actually for the past 2 years, 5th and 6th grade) So the home work thing made it worse. Also I was getting really low grades and I hate dislike my Science teacher. My language Arts teacher looks like she should be on my favorite show (friends) She just has that wierd look that makes her look like she must be famous. Now I'm doing better but I have a D+ in Science. (it should be a C but I was 2 points away from that.)
In October of coarse, Halloween. I went trick or treating even though it was a Sunday. She, Mom, couldn't find anything wrong with letting us go so we went. (she's cool for that. (not only that)) I didn't get as much candy as last year but I still got a lot. Now it's November and Thanksgiving is over. But on the bright side I'm getting suspended!
That most likely sounds really wierd but it is good instead of bad because I wasn't doing anything wrong. I just forgot to get my shots. I'm so excited because my almost best friend Morgan V is also getting suspended on the same day! Today I went skiing and totally sucked I fell down like every 5 seconds and now my butt is bruesed. But oh well. It was fun. I wish I would have snowboarded with Jason but I wouldv'e had ato rent a snowboard and that would cost $50.00!!! I didn't have enogh for that. On my last run I got a stomach ache and a head ache and had trouble finishing the run. Then Kristen, Jason, and Greg wanted to go down 1 more time so I took off my skiis layed down and fell asleep when they got back Jason woke me up and we went home. Now I'm writing this in bed but I'm laying on my side 'cause my butt hurts. About 3 1/2 weeks ago this boy who I've liked scinse 1st grade asked me out. I was sooo excited so I said yes. but sadly, (not really) I'm gonna dump him because all he ever did was say 'hi' so I'm saying goodbye to almost my lifelong dream. Ok back to Christmas. All I want (or mainly) is a baby cat (kitten) but I know I won't get one so I'm asking for a cat, a labtop, a CTR ring, and scriptures. If you didn't notice I canged the way I did my A's <3 Amber
sorry it was so long"

"Date: 11/27/99

It is realy early but I'll write anyway. Aunt Patty just called and there picking me up to babysit soon. I dont want to but I need the money and I hate to say 'no'. I want to go for 1 reason which is to see their new house. They'll be here soon so I have to go get ready. I'll write later. Maybe today. <3 Amber

Okay it's the same day as <-------------- Patty just called again and I dont have to babysit anymore. YES!! but that also means less money. Eli keeps trying to get this while I'm writing so I have to go. No, I dont. He stopped. I want to have a interesting journal but it must not be interest sciense nothing fun is happening. My butt still hurts a lot!! Now I do have to go. <3 Amber"

"Date: 11/28/99
I guess I'll finish writing about yesterday. After I found out I wasn't babysitting Morgan called and we went to Blockbuster Video and I used my gift card and ought the movie She's All That then we went to the Star Mart gas station and bought candy. We went home and watched the movie then Morgan had to elave and Steven, Me, Sarah, Emily, Eli and my mom decorated the tree. Jason and Dad were upstairs watching a movie. Today I slept in went to church then ate dinner and went to bed."

Yes! Today steven got up and went to school and I got to sleep in. Today I'm gonna get a shot because I've been suspended untill I get a shot. What does this mean? 2 thing NO SCHOOL 4 NO REASON and a bad thing, I get a shot but along with a shot comes a shake so there is a bad and good. I'l write after I get the shot and tell about it. Sarah and Emily get to start school late today because Ellen is taking them to school because my mom doens't have a car. They are gonna be 1 1/2 hours late. I'm not sure what happened about Vinnie. His friend was upposed to break up with him for me but I dont know if he did I'll just have to wait. About the shot. It turns out that I'm gonna get it at 4:00 But that means that I have to go back to school tommorow I went to Walmart."

The shot was fine and I did end up getting it so I have been going to school. (darn) It hasn't been that bad. I've been getting work done and been doing pretty well. Today in Language Arts we started reading A CHRISTMAS CAROL and so far it is really good and I'm thinking about reading that for my outside reading book assignment. Today I went to young women's and made sugar coockies that tasted really good! Then when I came home it was only us girls home and Emily was watchign a movie so mom figured it was time for THE PUEBERTY TALK I have dredded that for so long but I think I might start so I guess It was a good time. It wasn't too bad just gross and hearing the same stuff I heard at school or at certain times when it was right. Sarah hated it and mom said she will get a more detailed talk about it later. I hate to say it but I want boobs but I have cimi started getting ONE, I'm so nervous that I will have uneaven boobs in the future. Well dad just got home and I'm supposed to be asleap so I have to go <3"

"Date:12/16/99 (BAD DAY)
At school I feel so unpopular and ugly. A boy on my bus, Jeff, always calls me funnylooking and people are always making fun of me. Steven makes fun of me right in front of me to my friends and it just makes me want to cry. Also SARAH IS PRETTIER THAN ME. I dont ever admit I think that. Also I think she is cooler than me. Morgan even says that. I'm having a bad day can you tell. At dinner I had milk come out my nose because I was laughing because of Jason AAND I GOT IN TROUBLE. Dad is way--------> overprotective. one day I was going to meet Morgan at the top of the street and my dad drove me that was so embarrasing. Dad needs to lighten up. <3 Amber Man it feels so good to let that out)
We just watched Joseph Smith Movie. Same Day. I guess dad is all right"

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Reading and Internetting

As a kid I used to love reading. I loved being read to, and reading books on my own. I enjoyed book assignments in school, and I would often stay up late chasing the moonlight across my floor, holding my book in the glow in order to read by it for hours.
Then social technology happened.

I have had moments where I am back into reading and I remember how much I love the smell of an old book and the feel of a bookstore. I used to dream that I would meet my husband in a bookstore because then I would know that he cares about people.
People who read a lot tend to care a lot, I thought.

Well anyway, I miss books and I'm tired of social technology.
I'm thinking of downgrading my phone because I'm tired of Apps.
I'm thinking of getting rid of facebook because I'm tired of reading all the contradicting and equally convincing viewpoints being hurled around by my friends. I'm tired of the hundreds of finger pointing "smarter than you because I live my way and I'm happy, so you must be living wrong and surely you are less happy than me" articles. I am also tired of the blogs that put off the vibe of "having an opinion is bad because you will disagree with someone and how can you still love someone when you disagree with them?" That just causes people to stop feeling and stop learning and stop believing in right and wrong.  I love learning but I want to learn things without them being presented by somehow putting someone else down. **

I love that my friends have their opinions, even when they are different than mine.
I dont love that they are sometimes so rude about sharing them.
I love that people want to be constantly connected and I dont feel like I am always missing the people I miss because I can find them virtually anytime.
I dont love that the first thing I do in the morning is check facebook out of habit and I feel some weird desire to know what is happening in everyone's life and I'm just nosy.
I love that I have very strong opinions about things and I would love to discuss them with people I know.
I dont love that rational discussion about controversial subjects just doesn't happen when tact, love, and respect vanish because people feel safe behind the screen of their computer.
So even though I'm dying to learn a lot from all my smart friends and I'm dying to share the things I've learned and the things I love, I will choose to do this in person. 

I dont remember ever feeling this way when I read books. When I read a good book I think about the book, I think about my life,  and I grow. If I dont grow I at least enjoy my time guilt free. I dont feel threatened or annoyed when I disagree with the person who wrote the book because I chose to pick it up and read it. It wasn't put in my face and presented as fact, spread around the like latest town gossip. I can choose to believe or not believe lessons in books, but it wont offend anybody. When I share my opinions in person, I will be forced to use tact and remember that I'm talking to people who might think I am 100% wrong and that's okay.

Books are going to be my intervention from the drug of social media.

I miss books so that is why I chose them to return to. I can still learn great things and funny things and love the way I spend my time.  I will still be keeping up with friends on here because I do think its a great gift to be able to do so, but I will hopefully be less facebook affected soon. I will be too absorbed in books and my real life to get consumed in the hateful, harsh internet world.

 So long story long, I asked my friends to send me a short list of books they love and I am honestly going to read all of them. I already own a couple, so I will read the ones I own first and then I will just go down the list.

First up: The Alchemist (Almost done. It's great so far.)
    • World War Z by Max Brooks
    • Is everyone hanging out without me (and other concerns) by Mindy Kaling
    •   The secret life of bees by sue monk kidd
    •  Heaven is for real by Todd burpo with Lynn Vincent
    • No doubt about it by Sheri dew
    • Ishmael  
    •  The kite runner
    •  The alchemist
    • City of Bones and series
    • The Art of Racing in the Rain
    •  Cold Mountain
    • ***Currently Reading*** To Kill a Mockingbird
    • Codex Alera series
    • Peace Like a River
    • Okay For Now
    • Glass Castle
    • Bossypants
    • Memoirs of a Geisha
    • Life of Pi
    • The Hiding Place
    • The Scarlett Pimpernel
    • Pride and Prejudice
    • Hunger games series
    • The Uglies
    • Beautiful Creatures
    • Clockwork Angel
    • Clockwork Prince
    • Clockwork Princess
    • The Talisman By Stephen king.
    • Walk Two Moons by Sharon Creech
    • The Passage 
    • The Book Thief 
    • The Chestry Oak. 
    • A Thousand Splendid Suns 
    • And the Mountains Echoed.
    • Sing You Home
  • Picture Perfect
**(Is this the most hypocritical blog ever written?)

  • I'm really excited about this and I'm thankful for your help!
  • Saturday, June 1, 2013

    Guest Blogger: 11 year old Amber PART 3

    Not the right age as these entries, but close enough.

    "Date: Jan 2, 1999
    I can't belive that I havn't written in so long. Iv'e been buisy babysitting for my cosins and I've earned lots of monyy. 20 bucks. 20 bucks for watching Jerum who does everything on his own. Sarah who just hung around me Rachel who didn't really need me there and Grant who played with a new reote control car. It was really an easy few hours. I can't belive christmas & New years is already over. I think 1999 sound stupid. I'm trying to save up lots of money so I can go to washington D.C. on a field trip. I'm not even half way there. for hristmas I got a new stereo and rollerblades. I also got a winnie the pooh watch. Eli turned two not two long ago and is talking a lot. Steven and Jason are always fighting . I'm afraid one of them is going to get badly hurt one day. Every night lately I've been going to bed at 11:00 at the earliest. (Not to long ago I got a huge cavity that almost was a root canal)"

    "Date: 1/7/99
    Today was a normal day and I just went to school. At shool I was feeling really wierd. I always was coppying Jeff he liked it because he thinks I'm cute. Lots of girls think he's cute but I dont think I do. Lately I have been finding myself looking for him or talking to him a lot. Sometimes I plan on helping him with his work. Rachel B is now becoming one of my best friends She wasn't before. I really want to be more in style but it not me. Well gotta go"

    "Date: 3/29/99
    Today I went to school and did normal work and lots of Math. At about 11:30 a girl from Sarah's class came to me and told me to come to Emily's class and help her feel better because she was crying. She was crying because she accidentally broke a math material. I stayed with her awhile until she felt better. Just now I hit my head really hard on my bunkbed. It was really cute today when Eli sat on the toilet and tryed to go potty. After lunch today Alexa, Malorie, Rachel, my teacher and I put on a scitt for the class.
    Oh yeah, I get to go to the N'SYNC concert!!!!!!!!YEAH WHOOPIEE!"

    "Date: March 25
    Today I played in the morning because I didn't go to school In the Morning. I didn't because I had a tour of the school I'm going to next year. It was boring! Then at school I ate lunch played and did a small amount of work. Once I got home I got ready to go babysitting at Ellen's.Nate and Kate and Meghan were all really good. Stayed there overnight.
    AMBER :)"

    "March 26, 1999
    Today I stayed at Ellens house most of the day and played with the kids. Ellen had to go to conferences so Sarah and I watched the kids again. They were good. I got $15.00 for yesterday and today. I got home played comp. ate BLTs and came up to my room and listned to music. I also went to Mal's house. Listened to NSYNC! <3 <3 <3 a'lot."

    "Date: Saturday June 26, 1999
    2 days ago on the 24th of June Steven and I went to the mall at the pet store we saw a bunch of ferrets. One was white and Steven and I found out that we have enough for it and if my dad says "yes" we can get it. He has not answered yet. There ferret we want is a baby. AMBER H :)"

    "Date: Sunday June 27, '99
    Dad still hasn't answered about the ferret I wanted to write about my B-Day Party now. I'm finally 12 and had my Birthday party. I invited Erica R, Mercedes, A, Malorie S. Jillian T, Morgan V. , Jessica N., Rachel B., Briahnna E. , and Nicole C. couldn't come. Erica from next door came over for awile. Alexa S. came to. We pigged out on candy and weat things and we had a huge waterfight. Bri played Nintendo and I jumped on the tramp with to other girls. We opened presents I got:
    1. NSYNC Poster from Alexa
    2. Justin Poster and football from Jess.
    3. Rubiks cute band squirt gun- Rachel.
    4. Blockbuter gift card.-Jill
    5. Candy and $5-Morgan
    6. CD and cookies -Bri
    7. Beanie baby- Mercedes
    8. Beanie babies - Erica
    9. Stencil and notepad -Malorie
    from y family I got a wallet, a fake cat, and a CD.
    It was an awesome b-day.
    Yesterday Jeff S. moved to calif. so 2 weeks ago I went to Elitch's with him, Brandon, Jessica and me. I'm on sumer vacation and I swim a lot I also babysit.
    Jason got a job at Dairy Queen and wants to get fired so he can work at walmart.
    Steven is normal.
    Sarah is normal.
    Emily is sick.
    Eli is getting pottytrained.
    Mom is buisy and cool.
    Dad is out of town.
    Love Amber"

    "Date: Monday 6/25/99
    Dad's home!!! He said that we could get the ferret but it would cost so much for food and shots we decided not to get it. Steven and I went to wal*mart and bought a CD and Wheat thins. We jumped on the tramp a lot. instead of family night we watched 'Valcano' it was good. I still wish we got the ferret but I'm glad I wont have to spend that much money. <3 Amber"