Ups and Downs

Well Life has been pretty crazy, and I've been way behind on this blog. I'll just do a quick update and try and add pictures.

Well, Jamie and I had a falling out. We dont talk anymore, which is really hard for me. I dont want to go into detail, but I'll say that my riding the tour bus didn't go over too well with Jamie or his family. Once that blew over things were said and done that really hurt our relationship. We called it quits. We have talked a few times since, but not often. I miss him very much, breakups are so hard! Its hard to have someone go from being a huge part of your life, to someone you dont even talk to. Thats all I want to say about that, but i wish for the best for him in his life and always hope for his happiness.

After the tour bus incident I became very good friends with Carlos via cell phone. We talked almost every night for a few hours. We talked about EVERYTHING and just became really good friends. We planned on hanging out again, and once the tour ended he bought me a ticket to Texas to visit him. I was packed and ready to go, and my dad called me and told me he didn't want me to go. I was really upset, but decided to listen to my dad and cancelled my ticket. Carlos and I were disappointed but we both figure that everything happens for a reason, and there must be a reason that I wasn't meant to go see him. We still talked all the time for a few days.

At the same time I started hanging out with a guy from my ward at church, Lucas Taylor. My friend really liked him, and I had seen him before and always thought he was cute but never said anything because my friend liked him. One day we were playing volleyball, and I got up to serve and he said "If you mess up I'm going to punch you in the neck." It was hilarious, and I had an instant crush on him! What a hilarious thing to say. the neck?! Hah! Well, Lucas asked me to go to a place called "Which Wich" a sandwich shop here. I had never been there so I told im I would go. I had decided to give him the "friend vibe" since my friend liked him, and since I was still really heart damaged from the way things ended with Jamie. We went to get sandwiches and ended up having a GREAT time. Afterwards we went to his house and played pool, which is a hilarious game to play if you are in a "thats what she said" mood. haha. Ew, stop it.

So that night Lucas asked me if I would go out with him again that Saturday. I told him I would let him know. I talked to my friend the next day and told her about it, she told me she was sad, but that I should go out with him. What a great friend!!! So I told Lucas yes, and we went out. Things went really well, and that night we held hands while we watched a movie at his house. He was so respectful and kind, I couldn't believe it! Also SO attractive.

Lucas and I hung out every night for a month and a half pretty much. The more we talked the more I started falling for him. He is exactly what I want. He is what I need spiritually, and his personality matches mine perfectly. I am so content and happy with him, it only took about two weeks and I knew he was what I wanted. I didn't want to say anything too soon, to let him know I was falling for him and freak him out. But one night, we were sitting around and Lucas said "I like you." and I said "I like you more" and he said "prove it" and I said "I love you." WORD VOMIT!!! I was so embarrassed that it just popped out like that, but then Lucas looked at me, smiled and said "I love you too, Amber, I really do" I was so happy. We just cuddled forever, and when I left there was a rose by the door that he had bought for me earlier that day. SO CUTE!!!!! Can this be real? IT IS REAL! WHOOP DE WHOOP. what?

I dont say whoop de whoop. That was weird.

Anyway, so things are going so well. Lucas and I are so happy. I know he is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. <3


How can I be so lucky?

Also, I gave a talk on the Holy Ghost at a baptism recently. Lucas gave his on baptism. He was amazing and just stood up and talked, i had my written out, because i have to write my talks word for word. It was hard and I was shaking, its been years since i had to do any public speaking. Lucas said I did a good job though, so I was happy.

I have been reading the book of Mormon like crazy lately, and its been AMAZING. When you read it everyday, and try and get something out of it, its like you really feel the spirit all day. Such an amazing thing! I should be finished soon.

I sent Kelsey a Christmas package today, I miss her. I still have a picture of her on my phone, I wish I was still her nanny.

Speaking of nannies, I got a 3 day a week nanny position. I watch two little girls, a 21 month old named Morgan, and a 5 month old named Rachael. Rachael has downs syndrome, she is ADORABLE. both girls are cute, and its nice to only work 3 days and still make enough money to live. I watch babies so much!

Also my cousin Jae moved into my house with her son, Raleigh. He is 7 months old and I'm in love with him. :)

I'm going to see Lucas now, so I'll let you see him!


My lovah




Candid shot of Lucas and I at a wedding.

Utah trip 2

A couple months ago I wrote a letter to the manager of Jason Mraz and asked if I could have a ride to Utah with the band since I knew they would be going to Salt Lake right after the Denver show. I wrote it in a half joking, half serious way. I think it went something like this :
"Dear Jason Mraz/tour manager,
I recently bought a ticket to your Utah show, and your Denver show. I live in Denver and unfortunately I do not have a car, nor do I have a ride to Utah. I am writing this letter to ask if I can have a ride with you. I would be more than willing to pitch in for gas, and since I know that Jason doesn't eat any cooked foods i would love to bring some raw candy. Please get back to me at...

Thanks for your time and serious consideration,
Amber

Ps. I'm not ugly"

So even though I never really expected a response, I still waited for something to show up in the mail telling me "no" but nothing came. Luckily I really did have concert tickets haha.

Kristen and I got up and ready pretty early the day of the show and went downtown to wait in line. We got there and were maybe 15th or so in line. We hung out and played cards and stuff with the people around us. Alice 105.9 was there making "I'm Yours" videos or shout outs of people at the concert, so I recorded a video for Jamie which they posted online at alice1059.com. Mine is called "Hi Jamie"

Once they opened the gates to the concert people jumped to the front of the line so Kristen and I lost our front spot, but we made friends who when they saw us pulled us up to the front row. They were really nice, they were the lead singer and manager of a band called Two Days Drive, they gave us a CD of theirs while we waited. I haven't listened to it yet though.

Once in the show I was eating Jason up. He is so delicious, you could say I'm obsessed and you would be right. haha. He is SO skinny though, which isn't the best for cuddling. unfortunately his WHOLE concert was like a promotion for Obama, apparantly most Mraz fans are obama supporters and so as loud as I BOOed I just couldn't be heard. haha

 I think he is dreamy. I decided to try and get him to know I still wanted that ride, so during one song I grabbed the back of my ticket and tried to write a note on it with make-up. It wasn't working and one of the guys from Two Days Drive's wife let me borrow her pen, i wrote a quick not on my print out ticket that said "Can I ride with you to Utah, have a ticket but no ride" and my phone number. I balled it up with the words showing on the outside and threw it onstage. Jason saw it fly at him and looked at it curiously but ignored it and kept singing his beautiful songs. His band appeared randomly out in the middle of the audience, which was really cool during one song.

After a few songs he went offstage for a break to let all us crazy fans scream our heads off begging for more. While he was gone a security guard came up and picked up my note and carried it away. He laughed while he read it, but i figured he threw it away. I kinda lost hope then at getting a chance to ride the bus.

Kristen and I knew a security guard there and we asked him if he could talk to the tour manager for us and get us backstage, and he did and he said there was nothing he could do. Kristen and I sang our way through the rest of the show and then at the end we sat around and watched people leave, wondering if maybe we would see someone from the band or something.

I decided if I wanted a ride I had to do something about it, so I went up to the security guard and asked him if he knew what happened to that note I wrote, he said it probably got thrown away. Oh well.

Then I saw the saxophone player from the band. (One of the guys who just appeared right in the middle of the audience) He was signing autographs and so when he came up to Kristen and I, I said "hey, I have tried everything in my power to get a ride with you to Utah, is there any way you could help me?" He looked shocked at me and said "YOU'RE the ride girl?!" he laughed and I laughed and I explained my situation and he laughed again and said "Meet me later, well see"

So Kristen and I thought he was going to laugh us off, and we waited for a while for him to come back and he took a while. We saw him about five minutes later talking with a group of people and we went over and asked again and he said to meet him out back, then he whispered to some of the other people in the band and they looked at us and all started smiling.

Kristen and I went out back where all the crazy dedicated fans were waiting to catch a glimpse and hopefully a signature from Jason or the band (I got toca's sig on a 10 dollar bill earlier while in line). We sat with them for a while and soon out came the sax player. He came down the line and saw us and asked us to come under the security rope to talk to him. As soon as we went under the rope I could feel the eyes of all the crazy fans burning holes in my rediculously cool sweater. he asked us for the story again, and then told us that he wanted to help me. He said that he would try and figure it out if we met the band at a the "Horseshoe bar" down around the corner in about 15 minutes. Kristen and I weren't sure if he was just getting rid of us or if he was serious but we decided to try anyway.

We made the really cold walk down to the bar, and luckily we found it and the sax player (Carlos) was actually there! We were surprised and getting excited. We went in and hung out where I had to explain that I was mormon and wouldn't be drinking, and then show them I was still fun by laughing and being not shy but also not being annoying like a drunk girl. haha. it was really a good time. Then Carlos pulled me aside and said

"Heres the deal, we can let you on the bus but there are a few rules. First, Jason is on my bus, if you see him you can't be crazy and yell and take pictures or touch him, just be chill. Second, you are with me, so nobody can ask questions. sound good?" I told him it was cool for me but what about Kristen?

(Now I was exploding with excitement and also really sad for Kristen)I told Kristen that she wouldn't be able to go, and I wouldn't go if she wanted. She was angry with me, but more just disappointed at getting so close and not getting to go. She told me she would go if it happened to her, and that I should go. So I went with Carlos past all the crazy fans, who looked at me like I had just personally insulted them, and onto the tour bus. I was really excited, but surprisingly calm and not freaking out or feelings even uncomfortable. Carlos was really easy to talk to.

We got on the bus and I went in the back into the back lounge where the drummer was rolling a joint. I explained to him why I dont smoke weed, and he said it was interesting to meet a mormon. Haha! Once i got to change clothes, it was time to go to bed. Carlos got me some shorts and a shirt, and then we got in bed. We layed there and talked to eachother for a long time. We got along really really well. He was super nice to let me get on the bus, and even though he had to share his bunk with me, he was still willing. No nothing happened, I'm not one of THOSE tour bus girls! haha

Well in the morning I woke up and hung out with Carlos some more until my sister came and picked me up, then we went to the concert that night. I got a text from Carlos that said "I want to see you again" and I was surprised. I was thrilled about my little tour bus adventure, and getting to meet Carlos. Everyone keeps asking me if I met Jason, and No I didn't. But I still had an awesome time. :) :)





Carlos is the one laughing next to Jason.





This is a better picture of Carlos, with his cousin. What a nice guy!






A picture of me on the screen behind the band. That was a fun thing to do during the show.